self control (thinking out loud)
The series self control (thinking out loud) (2022) was done while I was in isolation due of Covid. I decided to investigate my relationship with myself and how my thoughts could potentially affect how I see and portray myself to the outside world. I made one self-portrait a day, for eight days, and for each of them, I gave myself a limit of two hours to work on them, and used a makeup mirror to look at myself. I chose using a mirror over pictures because I wanted to draw, and possibly notice, any differences on what I looked like, depending on the day, my mood, and my feelings. I approached each drawing without any idea of what they would look like and allowed myself to use whatever color or material I felt like using at the time, to really understand how the fluctuation of mood, energy, and thoughts would affect the way I portrayed myself. That is also why each portrait is so different from one another; identity is a very confusing aspect for me, and everyday I feel like I could be a different person.